I find myself purposely looking for something to look forward to.. hence all of this wedding brainstorming and planning. Desperate to avoid depression. Easily disappointed when things do not go as planned. I'm all over the place sometimes. I miss my mother alot. Every second.
This blog keeps me going many days.
Today, Rolanda pissed me off. She doesn't seem to understand why we should have a sense of urgency in booking a venue for potential wedding dates that are less than a year away. I am always looking for the right time to talk wedding details, and no time seems like a good time with her. On top of that, two of her line sisters are engaged. They will be in our wedding and she is in at least one of theirs. She wants to avoid August all together now because one of their weddings is on august 6th and out of the country. She wants to avoid her other ls's anniversary in October? I feel like I am ducking and dodging everyone else's celebrations...She's very nonchalant about the whole wedding planning ordeal, as if everything will get done regardless..
I suggested that we have the wedding in 2012 instead, she doesn't want that. She doesn't want it to be too cold either, we are running out of options.
I found a place (thanks to Deborah) that Rolanda and I both like so far! Elkins Estate. I am awaiting some info on their pricing. They are already booked for all Saturdays in September though :-(
I'm frustrated today.
